Sitting here in my favorite coffee shop, I ponder this question after it occurred to me that I’m close to who I really want to be inside, but that I always seem at least a little twisted to one side or the other. It seems that the context is all fouled up. In other words, this world and the constructs I have of it (mental and ontological) that allow me to operate so effectively inside it, also will always constrain me from hitting dead center of my true self, and so I remain a twisted, at least slightly distorted representation of the true self. Since we also have to deal with everyone else’s misconceptions of our true selves, we will never quite make it dead center in the eyes of others either. So the question arises, where (in what context) can we become our true selves? I’ve tried academia, New Age spirituality, PseudoPhych Seminars, Religion, corporate culture, TM, and a whole host of alternatives that I must admit capture some important essence of what center I’m attempting to locate, but none can contain all of it.

I think at this point I’ve just resigned to living as best I can, navigating the waters of life attempting to glean wisdom and share it when I feel it will be true for another, but I find this only moderately satisfying and can’t help but wonder if I’m not missing something important.

Who cares if I can lift it or not? That's not the point!

So I’ve decided to open it up the forum for comment.  Take a moment and share with me what (context or way of operating, or conceiving of things) you’ve found to be particularly satisfying in life. Help me to understand what you find satisfying in it, and if you’re willing, suggest a way that you think I might apply this to my life to find some greater fulfillment in the journey. I hope someone out there can help me to see some blind spots and apply a new way of operating or some new context I may have missed. Show me that life can be more than this.

Working it Out,

Luke